Confessions. Typically done in private but the sort of confession I would like to share is one that I think may inspire you.
We all have times when we feel really overwhelmed like we may lose our minds or really down as if nothing will get better. This is all normal and although people don't normally speak about it, it happens to the best of us.
One of blogs that I always enjoying reading is called Gala Darling. I looked into taking her Blog Academy course and possibly her Self Love Class but with tending to my daughter this summer (she had surgery) and prepping for a trip this fall with my family, it just wasn't able to attend either of them (yet!). Next best thing for me would be to take a online course and Gala's Radical Self Love Bible class was right up my alley.
Now you may wonder. Self Love? Don't you love yourself Daffny? Actually I love myself a great deal. But after much contemplation I thought having a journal that was dedicated to me would become a reminder of how awesome I am when the tough times come rolling around the corner and I feel that I cannot get through it.
I spend every day of my life giving to others. I have spent my entire life giving to others. Doing this journal has shed light on the fact that I need to bring back more of that attention and love to myself. I love loving. I love being married. I love being a mama. BUT I also love me. And although I have heard from older folks over and over that I should wait until my children are older in order to focus more on myself but the time is NOW.
In having children I did not lose myself. I gained more of myself. In becoming a wife I didn't lose my identity, I gained the truest friendship I have ever had.
I am week three into my three month course with Gala and I have already learned so much. Best part is that in a way it feels like homework so I tell the children that mama has homework to do and they sit quietly and watch me craft and journal. My family has been super supportive of me doing this and I feel grateful.
I love what I am doing and I love that at the end of the three month course I will have something that is solely about me and for me. I have never been an "all about me" type of person but doing this has reminded me that everything begins with me so therefore I need to make myself a bigger priority.
Excerpts from my Self Love Bible: